Success as a failure

I'm always feeling like the only thing I succeed at is being a failure.  I mean, everything I try to do, I fail at.  What would that lead you to believe?  I'm really good at failing.

So, with that being said, I'd like to give a quick update on my weight loss/being healthy journey.  When we last spoke, I was really gung-ho about the C25K program.  I was gonna train and run in a 5K (in time).  Well, my friends, fail I did.  I was able to do the program 3 times, that's one damn week.

I started feeling sick about 3 weeks ago, like miserably sick.  So sick, I missed work one day.  Well, I'm still feeling sick, miserable cough that just won't go away.  If you've never spent any part of spring in North Carolina, you wouldn't understand.  In the spring, this wonderful, yellow pollen starts flying through the air.  So heavy, at times, that you can see it flying through the air.  A huge, yellow haze.  It covers everything.  You can feel it on your skin, in your mouth, eyes, nose, on your clothes.  Everywhere!!  Growing up in New York, I NEVER had a problem with allergies.  Welcome to North Carolina, bitch!  I can't breathe, can't talk, can't think, can't see.  I didn't think it'd be a good idea to go outside and try to run when I couldn't even sit outside for more than 10 minutes.  So, the C25K program was pushed to the side.  I was really excited about that, too.  And, all this because of (as my wonderful friend and co-worker put it) tree spooge.

So, another of my friend/co-workers suggested that I try pilates.  I got on ebay and ordered up a DVD immediately.  I looked at youtube and found some videos and I was really excited about pilates.  It looked like a lot of fun.  I couldn't wait to get home and try it.  I've done the pilates a few times now and I really do like it.  It's not very strenuous and you don't even realize that you've at the end.

After a few days of pilates, I remembered that I have some dance aerobics dvd's at my house.  So, I put them in the rotation.  Again, a lot of fun, however, I can't keep up.  I'm slow and I can't get the moves like the instructor.  It's a little frustrating but I'm sticking with it.  I decided that I'd do dance one day and pilates the next.  I have 2 dvd's of each, so I can rotate those bitches.

To wrap up, I've failed my attempt at C25K.  I'm trying some other stuff that I'll probably fail at.  I've been soda free for so long now that I've lost count......3 months, maybe??  Also, I've lost 19.4 pounds.  I'm rounding it up to 20 because fuck you.  I lost 20 pounds.   My trip to Disney World is coming up, just 51 days away!!!!