So...

Last year, I busted my ass and lost like 30 pounds.  Then I went do Disney World, where I walked 7-11 miles a day but I constantly ate junk.  After that, I gradually (or maybe I'm fooling myself, and it was all at once) I gained every single pound back, and then some.  I just can't live like this anymore.  I know what I'm supposed to do.  I just don't do it.  It's just so much easier for me to go through the drive thru for lunch somewhere than to make a healthy lunch.  I always eat seconds or thirds for dinner.  Seriously?  Just ridiculous.  Who does that?

Anyway, that nonsense has gotta stop.  I'm 35 years old and if I keep going the way I'm going, I'll be in an early grave.  My family has history of diabetes, heart disease, and cancer.  My little boy is about to be 5 years old, I want to be around for his important events.  Like I said, I know what I need to do, I just need to do it.

I've been destroying my body for years and years.  I know how bad I've felt.  I have problems walking up the stairs.  I can't stand for too long.  I sweat when it's above 70 degrees.  I can't tie my own shoes without propping my foot.  I know I've been doing that to myself.  However, the problem is, I noticed my son and nephew starting down the same path.  My will be 5 in a few days, he's 4' tall and weighs 70 pounds.  He can easily either be tall and athletic or not...  My nephew has put on a ton of weight the past year.  He just wants to hang out in his room and snack.  He quit every sport he was in, quit karate, and even quit boy scouts.  I don't want them to see me sitting on my fat ass and think it's okay.

So, last week, I started.  I started quietly.  I put myself on a pretty strict budget, with no room for snacking or eating out.  I bought some healthier food and started walking.  I convinced the boys to walk with me and we're now walking a mile a day.  I've even managed to get the boys to drink water, instead of soda.  Adam doesn't drink a lot of soda, once in a while, but that's still more than I'd like him to have.

I've decided I'm going to set some goals for myself.  I'll be setting weekly goals and monthly goals.  I've even got a few long-term goals.  Last week, my goals were to: 1. Make a budget.  Done!  2.  Make a work out plan.  Done!  3.  Eat healthier.  Done!

My goals for this week are: 1.  Exercise 6 times a week, for 30 minutes.  2.  Stop drinking soda.  3.  Continue to eat healthy.

My goals for the month are: 1.  Exercise 6 times a week, for 30 minutes.  2.  Make and stick to a budget.  Continue to eat healthy.  4.  Lose 5 pounds.  5.  Completely quit drinking soda.

I haven't gotten all of my long term goals in order, just yet.  I will be working them out and setting up a long term goal system.  I have a great app on my phone to help me keep track of my daily goals.  I just need to figure out what to do for my long term goals.  One of my goals is that I want to lose 20 pounds by June 8th, that's when I leave for my vacation in Disney World.

I'd like to mention that, in just one week, I've lost 3.8 pounds!!!

Positive thoughts!  I need to do this.  I can't give up.  I can't afford to do it again.